Becoming a parent forces you to experience emotions like you've never felt.
Every emotion under the sun, to the extremes.
Sadness, Happiness, Confusion, Frustration, Joy, Love-- all of these, amplified, times A BILLION!
I use the word force, because that's exactly what it is. It forces you out of selfishness, and forces you into love.
Becoming a conscious, and mindful parent forces something else to occur.
It forces you to heal.
While your child is growing, developing, learning, testing the limits, you are FORCED to focus on the events, the people, the situations, the life you once had prior to parenthood. Whether these situations be positive or negative, these situations laid down the infrastructure on which you have built yourself to become a parent.
When I looked into my son's eyes for the first time-his innocent, loving eyes- that was the exact moment I experienced everything that ever happened to me, again.
A wave of discomfort, joy, fear, and love drowned me in it's strength. It took me in it's undertow of emotions.
And that, THAT was the exact moment my healing started.
Whether you choose to ignore or open the knocking at the healing door is your choice.